Originally posted by appalachiatiger:
love is a better word than respect, but I have both. i respec the way you love people, and how much fun you have with dreaming and the wide range of your interests andhow much fun you have playing with your boys and your son and how kind and fun you are with my girls and how completely unselfish you are. All those things.
When I turn away from you, it is usually during moments where i have lost site of that respect and love and want to nitpick some tiny detail with you. And I'd prefer to be easy and generally loving. I'd love to go to a counselor! yes! you pick and we go! Anytime.
So, jess and babies are coming over today for a playdate with Darcy. I'm excited. Have a kavu day!
natalie
hey,
as some of you know we're in a safety investigation because the woman we're evicting called child services and they have to follow through.
One of the awkward pieces of being investigated by the state is that their standards are rigid and not necessarily good for a happy life, so here are the details we've told them. It's likely you'll be called. We have no choice in the matter, and, and, I'm sorry you're involved. Hopefully it'll get blown over without involvement. I'm putting all these details together to have a unified front.
The girls and I moved from cumberland to the land on April 31st with intention to live in small home there, which was available a week later than we thought and we're now living in it.I homeschool the kids. They have a varied learning schedule, sometimes lots to do, sometimes learning from gardening, village life etc. they are kosher with the state and do their assessments.I don't have a license and DO NOT DRIVE. People drive us.Drew pays child support and apptiger doesn't. Mom occasionally gives financial gifts to fill in the gaps. (thanks mom
I have open, healthy relationships with my co parenting daddies. apptiger and I meet regularly to catch up and walk and talk.
thanks,
Natalie
I'm going to tell you now what I was going to talk with you about on Monday because it may help to make some things clear.
A lot of exciting things have opened up for me professionally, and one of them is the chance for me to live my lifelong dream of traveling the world with my children, which we will be leaving to do at the end of April.
When I realized this was a possibility I fought it and kept trying to make it work with you, but I can't fight a dream that is so important to who I am and to my life's purpose.
I have always known that I would do extensive travel, and continue to assume that my children will choose to come along, or choose to stay with whomever they want to. It's always their choice.
Darcy doesn't yet know anything about this. I'm not sure why he stopped wanting to go with you and that's not my business. I have stayed in my integrity completely with him, never talking badly or trying to get him to do something over another thing. In fact, it would have been a lot more convenient for me if he wanted to go with you. I get a lot of work done, etc. But Darcy has been unwaveringly clear that he isn't wanting to go with you. I feel like it's my job to listen to and nurture a child's clear desires so that they grow up feeling empowered, listened to, safe and tuned into their innate selves.
For my part, we will be packing and getting ready to head off. I continue to check in with Darcy daily about wanting to talk with you, see you, go to aquarium, hunt things, etc. He is very very strongly not wanting any of that, but if that changes I will tell you and he can come play with you if he wants that.
Natalie